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Spoken Word

I took the red pill yesterday, and God showed me how deep in my heart the rabbit-hole goes. It started with what seemed like a pretty simple question, Am I a word from God?

First, I have a confession to make. On the one hand, I know that I am loved by God. I know that He values me, has a plan and purpose for me. On the other hand, I still run into doubts in my heart. Places where I suddenly suspect, no matter how many times I have sung Jesus Loves Me, that I am more of an afterthought to God than precious in His sight. I stumbled into one of those darkened chambers in my heart as I wondered if I was a word from God.

So, I began to think about the fact that God formed me in the womb (Isaiah 44:2), and that I was fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). I love the phrase David used, “you knit me together in my mother’s womb” (Psalm 139:13). This was helpful. It reminded me that I did not end up here randomly. I am not an accident. I am part of God’s purpose. However, I still wondered if God formed me as a mere piece to His beautiful puzzle. Don’t get me wrong. Being a piece in God’s puzzle is an incredible honor, more than I deserve. But is that all that I am? Or am I something more? Not just something God will plug into the picture, but someone God speaks about?

This got me thinking about God speaking. We see how He spoke things into existence at creation. Does He still speak things into existence? Or did He only need to get the ball rolling? Did He actually speak me into existence? You into existence? Or does He just like to quietly knit things together?

I started looking for references to God speaking individual people into existence. I was reminded that He “brought us forth by the word of truth” (James 1:18). I thought about how we are called “epistles of Christ” (2 Cor 3:3). And of course Jesus Himself is called the Word of God (John 1:1). Thinking about the first chapter of John reminded me of the third chapter of John, where we learn that we are not just born once, but twice (John 3:3). Our second birth is birthed by the Spirit, which blows like the wind (John 3:5-8). So, God breathed me into my new birth, and breathing is a whole lot like speaking. Yet, in all of this I still felt unsettled.

So, I began to wonder, IF God spoke me into existence what word did He use? I began to think about my name. And I remembered that God actually has my name written on the palm of His hand (Isaiah 49:16). I also remembered that to the one who overcomes God will give a white stone with a new name written on it that no one understands except the one who receives it (Revelation 2:17). And that the new name that I will receive will not only be written on the white stone, but on me as well (Revelation 3:12).

My faith was growing throughout this process. But I was still unsure about God actually speaking my name, saying it out loud. Then I was reminded that God not only speaks over me, but actually sings over me (Zephaniah 3:17). I began to get a little scared thinking about God actually speaking out loud, calling my name. But then I was reminded of this: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are mine” (Isaiah 43:1).

That last verse sort of settled the matter in my mind. I began to wonder what it sounds like to hear God say my name. And just the thought of it sent the love of the Father down to the bottom of that hole in my heart. I accepted that my name is a word, which means that I am a word. I am a word spoken from Heaven, spoken by God. Once I had accepted that I was a word from God, that He had spoken me into existence, that I had left His lips, I was filled with such an awesome sense of the presence of God that I thought I might audibly hear Him speak my name. I did not hear my name, but what I heard in my heart was a promise about what God does with words like me, words like you. And it wrecked me. I was undone. This is what I heard:

As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

You are a word from God, spoken from heaven. All of your days were written in His book before your body was ever formed (Psalm 139:16). Your name is written in heaven (Luke 10:20). When you left the lips of God your purpose was guaranteed. You will not return to Him empty, but will accomplish what He desires and achieve the purpose for which He sent you. Receive yourself with thanksgiving today. “For everything God created is good, we should not reject any of it, but receive it with thanks” (1 Timothy 4:4). You are more than body, soul and spirit. You have been named in Heaven. And you are more than a name. You are a word spoken by God.

18 comments on “Spoken Word

  1. Michael Cartwright
    March 19, 2012

    I took this from one of my blog entries because your post caused me to reflect on the humility of living.

    “…I realize that His plan is greater than my little world, but my little world helps make up His mighty plan. And that is very humbling.

    I pray that going forward I am humbled by the fact that I am not the focus of Gods plan, but Gods plan is where my focus should lie.

    Taken from: http://spiritualwalkwithgod.wordpress.com/2010/12/18/the-power-of-being-humble/

    Thanks and God bless.
    Michael

    • Jonathan Stone
      March 19, 2012

      I love that connection, Michael. Thank you for posting your blog.

      Shalom!

  2. James
    March 19, 2012

    First, I have a confession to make. On the one hand, I know that I am loved by God. I know that He values me, has a plan and purpose for me. On the other hand, I still run into doubts in my heart. Places where I suddenly suspect, no matter how many times I have sung “Jesus Loves Me,” that I am more of an afterthought to God than precious in His sight. I stumbled into one of those darkened chambers in my heart as I wondered if I was a word from God.

    Yeah, that’s pretty much been my world of late.

  3. Steven
    March 19, 2012

    Thank you, great post! It laid the context for me of when Yeshua said “Therefore whoever confesses Me before men, him I will also confess before My Father who is in heaven. 33 But whoever denies Me before men, him I will also deny before My Father who is in heaven.”

    Confession being a “spoken word”??

    But those who do not confess him, “not spoken”?

    Shalom

    • Jonathan Stone
      March 19, 2012

      Love it, Steven! Thanks for making the connection!

      Shalom!

  4. Chrystal
    March 19, 2012

    I am bawling my eyes out. This totally overwhelms me!!!

    I know in my head that God loves me…He tells me in so many ways & doesn’t give up on me…but it is so hard to fully, FULLY believe & accept it in my heart. I don’t feel loveable – yes, I know it’s not about me being loveable but about Him being LOVE but still….Have you heard this song by Jason Gray? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QSIVjjY8Ou8 I need to listen to this song every day!

    Thank you, thank you, thank you, Jonathan. Just what I needed to hear. Would love to reblog if that’s ok.

    • Jonathan Stone
      March 19, 2012

      Chrystal, I think you are getting the dose that I got! Thanks for letting me know. And yes, you’re always welcome to reblog any of my posts. Thanks for reading. And happy crying! 🙂

      Shalom!

  5. Kelly Owens
    March 19, 2012

    I read this today after I had written my daily post. I was amazed at how much of the same sentiments they contained. I’m so thankful that we serve a God who “formed” us for His purposes.

  6. KlarionKall
    March 19, 2012

    Appreciate your transparency, this was a great article. At the end of it in my mind I just wanted to say “Selah”, cause after what you said, you just have to take a moment.

    God, peace, love and strength to you today!

    • Jonathan Stone
      March 19, 2012

      Thanks so much, Thomas. Yes, Selah. And peace, love and strength to you as well.

      Shalom!

  7. faithfully flawed
    March 19, 2012

    I struggle with this daily. Although, on an intellectual level I know that God loves us all (including me), on an emotional level I sometimes just don’t get it. I feel unworthy and baffled by this “unconditional love.” Your article was exactly what i needed to read today. Absolutely beautiful.

  8. Pieter Stok
    March 19, 2012

    I love the great sequence of verses. Thank you.

  9. Chrystal
    March 20, 2012

    Reblogged this on Learning to Be.

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  11. Debrah A King
    September 25, 2012

    was studying on the written word of God, and ran across this blog. My heart began to expand with the Love that was revealed to me by this text. I love God and I know that He loves me, however in the day to day living we are buffted and this Word reminds us that we are not a mistake, we are not forgotten and we are important to God. Thank you so much for sharing, God bless.

  12. Mariela Kowalsky
    August 9, 2013

    ***snap snap snap*** lol… great piece! Check out http://www.ronice-rochelle.com if your interested in hearing a different type of spoken word 🙂

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